Laugh as much as you breathe

It has been an interesting week. I took my finals for Chaffey so I don’t have to deal with that crap for a while. I hated those classes because I felt way beyond that crap. It sucks but oh well. Then I went to Robin’s graduation on Wednesday and I wasn’t expecting to be so sentimental about last year. But I got over it because I was just happy for Robin. He’s such a clueless dork but I’m in love with him. Also, the speeches kind of sucked compared to last year so shout out to Brie and Natalie for kicking ass. Then I worked Thursday morning then went shopping with my homie Arianna!! Those are always the best days rocking out in her jeep. Then we had an amazing bj’s dinner and had a creepy waiter.

Also, Tabitha is totally right about the McD’s customers. Especially the teenagers and sweet tea!!

To touch back on the school thing, I’ve seriously hated every second of my classes. They were pointless and half the time I didn’t need to be there because it was I already knew the lessons. I feel like I’m wasting my life there and it’s killing me inside. It makes me depressed and angry and I can’t let it out. I guess for now I gotta work my ass off to get out of there ASAP.

We are party animals.

Gonna go on a college date with arianna and hayley next wednesday. Super stoked. This is what we plan on doing instead of party stuff. We cool.

How could something so great make me feel so shitty. I feel like it shouldn’t be this hard and I shouldn’t be this unhappy. Maybe I’ll actually agree with my mom on this one. There’s a first for everything. Just didn’t think this would happen. Sad sauce.

I am confused.

I can’t tell if I’m the problem or my parents are just crazy. Cuz last I checked, being grumpy in the morning didn’t mean I hated someone or wasn’t part of the family. And why does everything have to be such a big deal. I’m 19. But according to them I’m still 10. And I’ve been told this many times. I like to think I’m mature but I guess not and I’m pretty sick of it. Seriously debating on moving to Washington but that’s fair. A change will be healthy though, or I would like to hope so. This day has already been too much of a headache. I am now resorting to the last Harry potter movie and chilling for the rest of the day. Also seeing arianna, my homegirl. So I guess I just have to know that I will be out of here one day. Just wish it was sooner

I find it weird that Glee applied to my life today. Realizing me and Blaine are going through the same thing helps me. Except Kurt answers his phone and Robin still fails to ever answer his. And yeah, he’ll be 40 minutes away but it still feels too far. It sucks feeling left behind. Almost like I’m missing my chance. Oh well :/

In other news, text me *cough cough everyone that left!!!!

Spent the morning with my family at church and at my uncle’s house with Robin. Then I had to go back to work while Robin went back to my uncle’s to eat and play with my cousins. Sooooo not fair!! But it’s still cute…

So lonely in this big house :/